Candles should have metal bottoms...

So last week, I learned what it was truely like to burn the candle at both ends. I had conferences across town to attend and keep up with my daily requirements. Being stretched between to locations 30 min from each other... no good. I need a traveling system that can access whatever I need whenever I need. I have already asked... they told me no, lol. Oh well. maybe one day? Probably long after I have retired though. So I got my butt kicked last week w/work, didn't get to work out very much so that added to the aggrevation. I get so cranky when i cant work out for more than a day or two. Then of course there is dealing with the morons i work with. I don't think I will ever understand why people who are of... higher stature never seem to have common sense. The entire of military knows, (well most of it, anyway) that the enlisted force is the all knowing, hardest working and most trusted side of the force?! I find it so hard to believe that where i work i could be surrounded by so many STUPID people.

Monday, 14 November.... it just gets better...

So, *sign* Monday. Get up, drive to work, dropped off the girl and off to my run. So my normal starting point is blocked off thanks to some retirement ceremony that isn't till 1000. Its 0715 people I think I will be done by then, gees. Ugh so, normal routine is to stop at bathroom and then stretch as the sun comes over the water... nope not today. I have to go to the gym to start my run... bathroom... doesn't work out (yea I know you wanted to know that). So I start my run....1st mile is good I got the rhythm down, breathing and feet. Nice slow but moving music. Then I just start to feel heavy at end of mile 2... ugghhhhh. haha in the last stretch there's no cars, no people. cept this one guy running towards me... hahah so all I can think of are those cheesy movie scenes, where the couple are running towards each other, lmao... I had to stop myself... I almost did it, but decided against it. But as we get closer I pull out one of my ear buds and tell him I almost did that.... No response. I was laughing my butt off.... Apparently he didn't think it was so amusing. Oh well. So I finish and normally I just take a shower at work but I decided that today since I was at the gym anyway why not. So I grab my bad and run in. I get all stripped down and stuff in hand and i get to the showers... there's a line... really... come on ladies.... 5 min... well i didn't have to wait too long other wise i would have said something. but i get the handicapped shower that has no outer self seat thingy so i have to get creative and pull that stupid seat down and maneuver around it to wash myself. ugghhh. whatever. so i have a question at this point, after i tell you what happens. I get out of the shower under things already on. Hair in towel. I get to the corner where I shoved my bag and uniform and this... SSGt? IDK what she was is like all over the place and then this SRA is across from me. I am attempting to put my socks on but the SRA sits down to put on her panty hose... ok fine ill stand and do this... socks on standing on sneakers pants on, fold pants, boots on and done...… The SSgt... when I walked over she was putting her boots on.... SHE IS STILL "FIXING" her boots?! What the hell girl! So I'm grabbing all my rubber-bands, hair brush and whatnot and she grabs her stuff and goes to fix her hair. So i make it over there and there is no where to stand but in-between a butter bar who has apparently spent the last 15 worrying over her eyebrow? idk and the SSgt. now we both have really long hair and I'm brushing away like always. (btw, right now my dog is very interested in my hair? he's sniffing it quite hard....just thought i would share) so anyway, i happen to look up and see that the other mirror is open so i move over there... now i look up and SSgt is making her "cute" little square thingy at the front and securing it down....My hair is in a ponytail and i got my donut on and making it all pretty. wrapping it up and done.... she doesn't even have the rest of her hair up..... wow, so in the time i have gotten out of the shower gotten dressed, packed up, fixed my hair and walking out she has put on her boots and barely gotten her hair done.... wow talk about the speed of snail.....whatever, so i go to work, grab my little lunch bag and my super green book, (i carry this thing every where, fun note, Zoo-Zoo decided he wanted to eat it a few weeks ago, lol) "linda" made fun of me for it all day, said she was gonna take it and replace it w/a new one... so i had to show her my drawings... lol. Oh but I go to sit down and this ridicules Navy Maj (known as a Lt Cmdr) who I want to beat is like hey at 11 lets all meet in the conf room, ok buddy sure thing... but as I'm waving my hand w. a thumbs up... my pinky and all down the side is... blue, there's blue all over my pants and uniform top..... freaking FANTASTIC! So do you see the pattern of my Monday... it didn't get worse it was actually pretty normal. So Lunch comes around and  I brought left overs. So my burning question... is Dog really married. Well, I just happen to have a few friends that work in an area that can access that kind of information, so I decide to go see them. Turns out she is having pork-chops too!!! Too funny. So we chit-chat for a few min and then I break it out.... So, the other day this guy asked me out, and of course like any friend her eyes get all big and she smiles. Lol, and the oh yea? Conversation starts. So then I was like yea well, funny thing... someone told me he's married, she was like nooooo, lol. So then Mrs See who's chair I was in comes back but I bring over another chair and we are all chatting. The conversation was dropped, I had mention he worked there and that its funny how I know people and they like to talk to me, lol. So the Mrs See is called away but as she is I happen to look up and see Dog looking around the corner... not for me I was way out of my normal area, lol. so I make this ridicules hand gesture and trying to not be crazy around other people that were standing there.  So they leave and she was like what's wrong? i was like he was standing behind you, lmao... sorry, hahahahah. so we are making jokes about my hand gestures and she said she thought i was taking about her and that maybe something was wrong (she was taking her uniform top off right at the same time) so she got momentarily worried that maybe she had done something embarrassing, the comment no bra, come up which sent us in to hysterics. Anyway I told her, rather I wrote his name on her calender and this is what I get: *huge gasp* "NO!, he is married and they are expecting a baby... I went to her shower!!!" O...M...G, no Fu*king way... oh this just gets better. SO I leave a little bit later and maybe about 20 min who shows up at my desk? HAHA I have renamed him to Dog Slime (DS). So we chat for a min and he asks how my weekend was, and i just smiled really big and said it was really awesome. haha, so then he says he'll bother me later. so about an hour later i get an email, we chat it up and i am dying, Linda says i gotta let it simmer and make him stumble. lol I say no i want to turn him into a 4 yr. old child. haha, so i let the conversating go on and i finally ask so how was your weekend? i get back, good but lonely... huh so i ask, why lonely? he says, i needed some extra lovin this weekend, no one to give me any.... !!!!!!! I'm about to explode at this point!!!! I forgot when he was at my desk, I was making my calender for a trip I am making in march back to the West coast for a ruck march and he asked me about it. Then he's like ohh send me the info I wanna go!!!!!! So anyway. I ask what does "extra" loving mean and is it in reference to be more loving that currently already receiving? He says no no loving at all gets all frustrated and says women are sometimes easier to give it up than men.... Now that I think about it, maybe he's bi too!!!! bbwaahahahahahahahahahahahahahah, oh I kill me. SO I ask for him to explain that. Can you tell I'm fishing? He apparently cannot. So then he makes a remark or asks if I ever get laid, I said yes (yes I know I lying but he doesn't need to know that) but I dont think it's really any of his business. He asks what if he wants to make it his business? I replied, well I'm pretty sure we discussed this last week and it was decided that this is not gonna happen because we are looking for 2 different things. He says dang not even given the chance to make it his business.... I'm dying at this point. So at the same time I am emailing Red and tell her about it... she tells me I should send him all the info and then say you should really invite your wife and make it a family outing and something else, that was really good. So I bust out laughing, and Linda is looking at me all worried. No, I have been keeping Linda updated on the happenings and so I fwd that lil snippet of Red's email to her, she thought it was pretty funny too. I haven't answered him. I dont really know what to say really. I think I want to draw it out and see how far he tries to go, and hang on to the proof and destroy him with it. Not by inter-fearing with his marriage but will def make him think twice before he tries to do it again. Thoughts????

November...

So here we are November 2011. I have been on like half a dozen trips, training conferences... all kinds of FUN stuff, lol. I have one more left before end of year, but this one should be good. I leave the Sat after Thanksgiving, but I spend like 36 hours traveling. Should be interesting. Well, Halloween ended with a blowout. I think I mentioned I blew up at Mom. I said things that didn't make any sense at all, but then again I have the problem when provoked at the height of aggravation. Nothing was resolved, and I now know that no matter how long I wear the uniform, it is a way of life that only others in uniform will ever truly understand. The things we endure home-station and overseas. Things we dont talk about with our civilian friends or family because we know that they will only hear the bad and not understand why we continue on. Never truly understanding why we aren't discouraged away from the bad but press through and to it. I am ok with that, and maybe one day I can tell her about it, but I doubt it. She has a very negative  attitude against some things. And her ridicules paranoia of "Big Brother," pretty ironic that I would be considered a minion of "the Man," lol. ANYWAY, so I hop on a plane to Ill, not 2 days after I finish 2 of the 3 days and have walked 45 miles. Ugghhhh, wearing heels and all that fun stuff. The next weeks I'm supposed to wear business casual, oh goody. Well, my trip gets cut short by a week, which is pretty awesome. WE got done with our task early so Ms. M and I came home. I learned a lot that week, and it never ends on how much I still dont know and what much still there is to learn. Lol, sometimes I wonder if I will ever catch up. I try to not let it beat me down and only use it help me push forward. So I come home sat and go rt. back to work monday, which was prob better cause mom is still in town. So this past Tues... I will call him Dog ( because he is) started hanging around my desk, now I have talked to Dog before no big deal, Army, computer nerd, cute in a country boy kinda way. So I have this puzzle on my desk call "The 11 L's" or loser game. Its pretty cool it has 11 "L" type pieces and you have to make them all fit together. I have solved it once. So Tues Dog sits at the desk across of me for about 45 min trying to solve this game. He's not the first several people have done this. (not for 45 min though, lol). So he gets fed up and leaves it on my desk says he will try it again later. SO then Wed he shows back up, trying to solve the pus again and says that he was gonna email me yesterday (tues) and see if I wanted to grab a beer... I think he said wed or thurs night. Don't remember. So then he says he will email me later and walks off. So I think like an hour or something later I have an email, the traffic basically goes he's asking me out and I say I could prob go out sat, he says it will cost me a hug and a kiss. I said a hug maybe.... A kiss you're pushing it. SO he makes this weird random comment about gettin and hittin it. and that he was all lovey depending on what the girl wanted or he could just do whatever. I told him I dint do the casual things, So then he keeps asking what am I looking for and I am honest I tell him I dont really know cause I stopped looking really. but if he was seriously trying to date me he needed patience. and some other stuff (this has continued on to Thursday). So anyway. He says lets keep it casual and I say I think we have to different definitions. Well, I was not really paying attention to the time and it got to be really late (mom's flight was around 2 it was now 1). The school called and was like are you gonna pick up your mom? (she spent the day at school w/the Girl), So in a rush I send an email w. my cell that if he still wanted to have a beer to give me a ring. So Friday comes and goes and no message or call. Whatever, he was being weird anyway. So then Sat one of the neighbors is havering a bday party and all the adults of course were having their adult beverages and I mention to neighbors husband the date and Dog (by name) so what does he tell me.... DOG IS MARRIED!!! HAHAHAHA *sigh* so now I cant wait till monday I was wondering if I should play along for a few days (which due to holiday and tdy could turn into weeks) or if I should turn him to vapor right away... I guess I will just have to see what monday brings. *evil laugh, muuuaaahahahahahahahahahaha* lol.

So I think I mentioned that I was hooked to mud racing. I have a race coming up on the 19th and I am pretty excited. It's not supposed to be all challenging like the last one, is supposed to just be a "fun run" lol. This will actually be my last race for the year but I already have my next races set, first one so far is in March. I have also or will also be signing up to do the Battan Memorial Death march at the end of March. 26.2 miles in uniform and boots carrying a 35 lb. ruck. So Jonesy, and Army guy that I work with decided that he would be my work out partner. Lol, good for me, but poor him. Having to deal with me, lol. He is good people. Has really helped me get better at my work out. My week goes something like; Monday 3 mile run. Tues sprints (100, 200, 300, and 400 meter), Wed gym (total body), Thurs 4 mile run and friday ruck.... We haven't started the rucks yet, but of us have been gone and in training the last few weeks. Then Sat I do whatever I want. I think I am going to start walking to make sure I am ready for the 60 mile next year....

So that brings us all up to date. I will definitely let you know what happens tomorrow. OH! I have decided to try my hand at making Wine. First, raspberry. Should be interesting!!!!

and a time she's a going....

End of July, the drive back and the end of a relationship... finally!


So I'm coming home and all I want is my house, w/my bed and all my animals. I have been living in a hotel for the last 7 weeks and all I want is to be surrounded by MY stuff. I have never wanted to be home so bad in my 12 yrs. of service. So I call Truck to let him know I will be home soon and that I will stop by and pick up Zoo-Zoo. Earlier discussion was that he (Truck) would bring Zoo-Zoo over Sat...I said no I would pick him up on my way in, no big deal. He asked if I was gonna stay with  him, I said no.…all I wanted was my stuff... its been a long 6 weeks. THen he calls back and says that oh yea he totally forgot he was taking the Son to a movie and it was out by me so he would drop off Zoo-Zoo and everything but his kennel... ok, cool word. I stop and get gas right down the street (yes I am stalling) I haven't gotten the call that the drop has been made. So do not want to deal with him right now. I know I didn't mention this before, but aver all this time, it has come to light that he isn't the sanest person I could be around and actually I'm kinda scared of him, yea I know… me scared... well I was... I actually had a breakdown the night before all this scared sh!tless about the face to face.... Anyway, he finally calls that Zoo-Zoo is home and he is leaving...whew... I will deal w/him tomorrow. I have Red on speed-dial and she is standing by, lol. actually I have like 4 people standing by, lol. I love my new friends. Well, apparently he has picked up that this is ending and is really short with me on the phone... whatever, I just want to go to bed.

The next day, I finally get him when he is home to get the kennel. I cant leave the house and desperately need the kennel. Zoo-Zoo will eat the house if I leave him out and I need groceries. I want a home cooked meal and no more fast food or chow hall pls.... He tries to stop me in the drive way and is all your just gonna leave... I explain that i didn't deserve to be treated the way he treated me, yelling at me for something that i have no control over and all the other little things that came out over the last 6 weeks... no thanks... so get out of there, not much conflict and no craziness, awesome... So like 3 days later i get am email says he had more to day... basically how in the beginning we said we would deal with each others ass-hole moods. I said there is a difference between being a n ass hole and being flat out crazy and he was just crazy and needed help, which he then tells me he's getting... Good for you hope the boy is too cause y'all both need it.... bad, and i will be your friend if you need someone to talk to but i will not be your GF and i can't go down this road as your GF.... sorry

So sometime before I finished class I got an email from Mr 2112... he's back from is short "deployment" and how am I?... Still in the Academy... he's says your busy I'm sorry take care and that he really regrets that things went the way they did and wishes he could change it and blah blah blah some other stuff... lame... moving on!

Old Man passed away in July, the girl went out to get him and found him in the dog house.... Passed. Poor thing. Mom called at work and the girl was in a mess of tears... it was all I could do to not lose my mind at work... I cried the whole way home. My dear sweet, sweet boy. I emailed his dad and it was just awful over again. But at least he's no longer in pain and was in a place where he got constant care and love and was with his lil girl.

August


School will be starting soon and The girls is still at Moms, and Red's bday is coming up... SO I have planned to spend the week with Red and then up to moms to get the girl and then home... It was a nice week at Reds, very relaxing... even w/all the "alarms" lmao. and she even let me bring Zoo-Zoo. I get the girl, get home and get her all ready for school.... 3rd grade... no more childish things my love... getting to be a big girl, no more talking in class and disrespecting the teacher... harsher rules this year... fairly uneventful month.

Sept
Another uneventful month. We move in to our new building and I have the worse possible seat. We are now in "cubicle land" but not completely blocked off from each other. I can see Army trans guy across from me, he's a riot... we are on the last row and i am the first seat of the row but hidden by a small wall. so the first 2 weeks i spend "teaching" people how to walk around my area... During the first 2 full days i was there, i had like 5 people fall on top of me cause they cut the corner too short and they dont realize I'm RIGHT FREAKING THERE!!!! so i set my trash can out to if my "cubicle" was actually enclosed were the other 2 walls would meet. people trip and get all pissed and i just yell it could have been me! and i am sure they hear me threaten the next person that falls on me.... I'm gonna pound them. No prospectives and I'm not looking.

I decided that 8 yrs was enough fighting and gave in... i had laser lypo on my tummy and got all the fat sucked out... i can see my toes again!!!! i worked out the cost and "borrowed" from myself. no the healing begins and man does it feel weird. wasn't a bad deal. only in the office for 1.5 hrs and i was "birthday shopping" 30 min later. will see in 2 weeks how i feel about it...

 I did Savage Rave and oh boy am I hooked!!!! I was released a few weeks ago to start doing PT again, so i haven't trained at all for this race. its 3.5 miles of mud, fire, water and obstacles... there is even a 150 meter swim... totally kicked my ass. but man was it awesome!!!!! cant wait for the next one....tummy looks great! swelling is down and bruising was quick still have to wear this ridicules garment, but aside from it riding up my ass all day i actually really like wearing it.

October
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY GIRL!!!  8 yrs old! We have a bday party planned but no one but 2 have RSVP'd, hmmm seems this may turn out a lot like her 6th bday, but lets hope not.. Well it was actually a good turn out I really didn't expect that many to show... Good for her, glad it was awesome... The girl is doing gymnastics and was moved up to "stage 2". Yay! Just wonder how longer she will stick with it and if it will turn more serious? She's not bad.

I have the Iron Crusader coming up, is supposed to be awesome... nope. IT STANK! horrible whatever, it was a race and they all help me train for the big ones, lol

Next weekend I have the Susan G. Komen 3 day, 60 mile walk.... I have not spent a single day just walking, lol. I'm gonna hurt so bad... but running helps right? I have been working really hard the last few weeks. Jonesy decided he was gonna be me work out partner a few weeks ago and kicks my ass on a daily basis.... so that will help right? lol

So I made it 45 miles (2 days) it was absolutely AMAZING! I met some wonderful people (Ladies).  My right arch fell and my fav running shoes are done... absolutely gone. Lol. my legs are killing me and man I hurts to walk. I didn't walk the last day. Since i am leaving on tech 1st want to spend the next few days with the girl.... but next year, all 3 days, all 60 miles...

I am scheduled to go TDY on tech 31st... well this is my most favorite holiday and a religious day for me as well. So I make my travel for 1 Nov.... Mom flew in on the 23rd, trick-or-treating comes along and mom says go with the girl ill pass out candy... ok, i will see if i can keep up, my dogs are killing me. so i make one lap, we stop by a neighbors house to swap parents and i decide i cant walk anymore... feet are angry and just not having it. i go home to change shoes and decide to grab a beer, cause that will help right? lol... long story short, mom shoves candy at me make some ridicules remark about not being invited to neighbors... (who's going to the neighbors?) goes to neighbors she's made friends with. night ends w/me screaming at her... cant wait to get on a plane.

Wow, I'm all caught up, sorta... I'll give you to nov to this point tomorrow its 1 am and i have no idea how much i have actually had to drink tonight, lmao HAHAHAHA

How times flies , cont...

May

So here is May and I am being sent on a TDY to St Louis. Well, actually Scott AFB. Oh goody. COme to find out my Army friend that I made while TDY to Colorado would be there too. hmmmm, Well Truck and I are good I make it through the TDY all nice and avoid any interaction with..."Mow". I come back and one rough day Truck decides to leave roses (1 yellow, 1 pink, and 1 red) on my windshield. I go out to my car for lunch and happen to find them.... awwww "blush" how stinkin sweet!!!!! so then I get hit with congratulations you are going to the "Academy". Oh yay me.... Not.... ugghhh so I fight it but it doesn't work I have to go. ugghhhh FML. oh well what ever classes starts June 1. So I work it to where the girl will stay with Truck for 3 days. Class starts Thurs, I have to drive up wed, it's not the last week of school. So I talk to the school they ok me pulling her a week early I get a ticket she stay with truck till sat morning.... All is well. Except the day I am working on leaving turns upside down and everything just goes in every direction imaginable... My rock, Truck.

Did I mention that I take Truck and his boy up Ga to meet mom and dad (Memorial Day)? hmmmm, interesting visit. Not bad, I dont think.

June
1 June driving to Panama for school. Its 8 hrs and I should have left like 3 hrs ago, took car to a detailer and realized like 3 hrs later.... The girls DSi was stolen out of my car.... They say they didn't do it... whatever, I'm late and you're making me insane. Crap I need.. Oh who knows but I think I forgot something. "Truck, meet me..." "ok, see you there in 5 min". Hey babe, miss you have a safe trip blah blah blah, enjoy the ride. call me when you get there of if you start to fall asleep. ok, so here i go... I make ti there only to realize I'm a day early... hmmmm, oh well. whatever i will spend free day at beach and picking up anything i may have forgotten, silver lining... So school starts and about 1 week into it the "old man" has gotten worse, he's just completely out of it and I have left him at Moms to be where he can be cared for 24/7. Mom tells me he wont make it another 24 hrs. so my first weekend I drive up to Ga.... Old man seems to be ok, very agitated but not on death bed. Thanks, Mom.... Could be studin. Whatever so next week we get dumped on with work that is due and papers, speeches, reviews, etc. Well, Truck has been calling and txt'ing and I'm, getting nothing. No big deal, I'm over loaded with work anyway. My relief.... The picnic table outside my dorm door is the "hang out" I have met a small group of  people that sit out their sun-thurs night... every night.... Good people. Lots of fun.... Next weekend I am hangin out with "Red" awesome chick not in my class but we get along tremendously. She has an ex that is local he takes us out... totally lame. I talk to Truck when I can but he is severely agitated with me. Oh well, I'm doing what I can with what I got. I'm not getting the calls and I have papers that need writing. So 3rd weekend and I have a race in Orlando that I had scheduled long before they decided to send me to school. Well Truck was supposed to got w/but then changed his mind like 3 times, so i talk Red into doing the race with me so i dont go ti alone, mind you this is my first "adventure race", oh! and "T" a guy in my class has asked if he can catch a ride wants to come home and see wife and kids... well sure!! road trip !!! wooo, lol. So on the drive home i call Truck and let him know we are a few hours out... what do i get on the other end.... a very, very drunk Truck and the conversation goes" WHAT?! ok, whatever... yea i dont care, I'm drowning myself in a bottle tonight"... oh well, good talk glad my new friends could here that... awesome... So this is friday night, Sat is the race and we have to be in Orlando before 10, race wave is at 11. So i drop off T and Red and i go home, we pass out to wake up nice and early, drive to Orlando run our 3.2 miles w/obstacles in 43 min.... not bad but could do better i have started smoking again so i am not running my best, this time actually sucks for me and it wasn't all i thought it wold be but there are 2 new flyers on my car and i wanna try another one...So we get home sat afternoon and i am cleaning up around the house, mowing the yard, blah blah blah. Red is studyin w/beer and pizza in the back yard when Truck calls or I call him I cant really remember..... So here entails that screaming match... Now I dont like to fight, I can say really mean stuff and vaporize you in an instant and I dont like doing that, Truck blames me for my phone carrier not being able to penetrate cement walls and ring my phone. So I lose my damn mind in my driveway, I curse, I scream, and basically I let him have it. Then he tells me that he thought we were gonna have some alone time together, I ask so what you cant come over now? He's like no you have company... huh, ok whatever. So this for me is the point where I realize dude is physcotic. Not just a little crazy like we talked about when we first started dating. No, this if my realization point where I thing dude might need serious help... really it's my fault my phone sucks? Huh, ok.... Whatever... well dude is watching Zoo-Zoo, and I dont have anyone else that can do that. He's a crazy pup and well yea is a total handful. So I have to suck it up and see what happens.... It does not get better... FF to July.

July


So by now I have pretty much spent every weekend traveling and no getting any studying done. Not really sure how I made it through this class but I did it with a pretty decent grade too... Sun-Thurs night is sitting outside with a group that we have dub'd "Smoke Team 6," yes that is in reference to "SEal Team 6," lol. It's a group of like 6 or 7 of us that are always outside every night. havein a smoke and always a drink. Its good times, we are all friends on Words with Friends and we sit right next to each other playing the game... its hilarious. So here come July 4th. Mom and Dad are bringing the girl with them and I dont have to drive (for once, wheew). Well, Truck and Son were supposed to come but Son is having issues and it is decided that it is best if they cont come up. So on the actual 4th We are on base at the "bay" in a picnic area... its perfect, water is nice, there is a table under a pavilion, water is like 5 feet away... awesome. Well, Red comes to spend time with us and we are having a blast. Red and I decided to rent paddle boards. hahahahahah, poor Red... Well Red made mom a drink and mom has 2 and next thing I know, mom is floating out to sea, lol. Dad tells the girl to not let gramma float away, lmao. THEN  mom comes ashore, grabs tree and empties stomach contents... Que. time to get paddle-boards (which by the way is super fun and if I could afford my own... totally a new sport I would LOVE to get into). So Red decides to get into he water right were we got the boards and I decide to walk to where mom, dad and girl are.... I come back to find mom passed out on a towel on the ground, the girl is board... i get into the water and get all situated and about to push off and i see the kid that got the boards for us... uhh oh, i KNOW he is looking for me... crap what now... He see me, walks down.... "uhhh your friend cut her foot pretty bad".... awesome... i grab the paper-towels and start walking back... I come to find Red laughing and sitting on a wall, she laughs when she sees me and as i get up to her she decided to show me.... the inside of her foot..... huh, yea no thanks.... So 911 is called they show up and do.... Nothing... wow you guys, way to go... so they wont drive her to the ER so I do it. We call her class leader and update them.... I drop her off to get back to mom and dad... oh lets not forget the piggy back ride I gave her into the ER, LMFAO!!!! good times. WEll, by now I can do nothing more than "play nice" with Truck he has my pup which I have come to find out the Son decided to not feed for 2 days.... Scared to death this poor pup isn't gonna make it or be damaged when I get him back... come on graduation....

Whew, made it, met some awesome people, actually had a good time. Glad I went through this class, no lets head home, get the pup and end it with Truck....I can't drive fast enough....

intolerance

ok, so I know I am waaaaaaaay behind on keepin this thing up dated but this one I just have to jump to. I will get back to the crazy ex in a minute. So a few days ago this Army cat starts hanging out at my desk. Granted I have this awesome brain teaser puzzle so I dont think anything about it. The first day he sits cross from me for about 45 min on this puzzle, it's a good one it took me about a week to solve it, and I solved it on a whim. I would work on it when I was tired of staring at spreadsheets and programs so I didn't spend much time on it daily. So then he's like uhhh i'll figure it out later and leaves. So the next day he comes back (of course, lmao) and gets on his knees and starts workin on the puzzle at my desk. Then he says I meant to send you an email yesterday and ask if you wanna go out for a beer. I was like oh, well thats nice but I cant this week my mom is in town and it's a pretty busy week. So he's like ok, well I will email you in a bit. So IDK, like maybe 30 min later I get this email from him, and the conversation goes that he is asking me out. So I lay it all out front cause it just seems kinda weird. I tell him if he is seriously trying to date me then he needs to know few things, and one is I dont do casual (which, to me, means its just whatever and there are other people that we "interact" with). And that he needs to have patience. Well, he comes back with he thinks casual fits better cause he travels a lot and I am busy and we should just keep it causal and friendly like it is now.. I reply, I think our definitions are different and like I said I dont do casual, but as friends I'm cool with that. Well i had to run off to take mom to the Airport (she has been here watching the child cause i was in St Louis.) so i sent him a quick note cause i was way late and got my times all mixed up so i gave him my cell and said if he still wanted to hang out Sat to let me know. (we had set sat as a night to go out and have a beer). Well, I decided that if I didn't hear anything by Friday afternoon that it was a no-go and that if he text or called after that I would turn it down. I had a sitter lined up but I dont do last minute dates, I wont always have a sitter that is willing to come on line. Well, I never heard anything (obviously), so I just waved it off. No big deal, he realized I'm not into the whole "boy toy" as he put it thing. So then my neighbor has a bday party for her girl and i actually happen to mention to her husband (who works in the same place I do) that i was supposed to have a date that works in a certain location for a certain deal.... and what does he say...… isn't he married?!  huh... interesting. that wasn't the impression i got from his emails.... he says... well according to his facebook...… oh.... well one more reason for me to not care... So now, i want destruction. I want to tun this man in to a 5 yr old child crying for mommy. But neighbor wont show me said FB for ammunition because he is upset that Army is "one of those," oh well, I will destroy him on my own. But I have decided to hold off I think, drag it out some more, see if I can draw him out to more daring... and then crush... I will have my vengeance, and it will be beautiful. Actually I wont do too much, I will make him cry for forgiveness and then I will let Karma catch him and will toast to her when she does, actually I am toasting her now :)

Wow How time Flies!

So I know its been since March since I have had an update and I totally thought I would be able to keep up, man was I wrong. SO many things I thought I would be able to do. I moved here last Dec and here it is almost the end of Aug! I have gone TDY 3 times for a grand total of 4 mths, I go on a day trip for a day at the end of the month and then no traveling for me I'd say until the end of the year, but it was finally agreed that I could go to jump school, I just have to get ready for it. So I will try over the next few days to catch you up!

March...
 I got all moved into the house, Mom and Dad came for a few weeks not very much got done and I did not even get all of the boxes out of the house (I think I still have like 5 total around the house, lol) THe first room done was the girl's, she was happy with it. Mom didn't get the bed done but I did eventually. I really got into the wickets of the job in March was pretty much on my own and had a civilian (which from here forth will be referred to as "my human"). It was a frustrating month but I really got the ins and out and got to know my counter parts out in special land. I think this is the month I ran into an old friend from my last base. We used to work together. It was pretty crazy and if I remember right this was also the month we had this crazy storm roll through and tear up downtown (and my neighborhood for that matter) really good. Nothing too drastic but it did do some damage. There is one street near post that is still rebuilding a few buildings. Did I mention I was watching a puppy? A baby boxer, I now call him zoo-zoo. Owner ("The Sailor") called me in Feb asking if I could (well Mom, since she was their) watch the lil man till he got back in a month, had some crazy drama w/with was being sent back to his post in Va. So end of mth 1, the pup at this point is like I will guess 4 mths old? Needs to be house broken... I have new house... new carpets....yeaaaaa.... Dont know how much  more I can handle. "The Sailor" calls and says one more month, pretty please I really gotta get stuff squared away.... As for Mr 2112, he's basically moved in w/  us at this point. But isn't nearly around as much as he used to be, and has started acting all stupid.... (big surprise)

April...
 I didn't get to go the 5K this month. I ended up falling down my stairs (again, lol) and hurt my back/shoulder pretty good. That was on a Sunday, by Wed I was still hurting and it was getting worse so I finally went into the doc. He looks at it says he doesn't think its broken (well duh I think i'd be screaming by now) but he wants me to get x-rays. So the tech comes in and says hey run by the lab too. I was like ok, maybe they are being goofy and wanna test my kidneys. So I go, yup sample please. So I'm in the bathroom, dont really have to go but if I think about it maybe I can. So I'm looking at the side of the cup and its says "HCG". I'm like huh.... thinking.... thinking (I was in pain and hadn't really slept well the last few days, give me a break)....WAIT!!! what the!!!! ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME?!?!?!?!?!? Well, by this time sample was in the cup, so whatever. So I go to xray and the tech was trying to make me laugh (and was kinda cute) and it wasn't working out so well... back hurt he's making me stand and move in all these crazy positions and it hurts. So he's givein me a hard time about if I'm preggers or not. So I get back to work, and I'm HOT!!!! I'm mean LIVID!!! WTF does this moron think?! I threw myself down the stairs?!!?!?!?! REALLY!!!???? COME ON!!!!!! So i emailed my Army buddy asking if that was standard protocol or could i punch douchbag in grundal?! he said they do that sometimes... still... ugghhh it still gets to me. lol So.. April, well no TDY's this month but Mr. 2112 and I have broken up and gotten back together and broken up again by the end and my friend, hmmmm, "Truck" and I have started talking more. I don't see him in the light of anything more than a friend till one night hanging out at the neighbors (I shall name them Svava and Helgi) Svava asks if there could be anything more, and well "shined the light on him" so to speak, lol. So I fight it of course, I dont think it's a good idea, I'm not ready, I can be a jerk, I work too much, blah,blah,blah... all of my normal excuses.... "Truck" has an answer for all of them, so after a week I give in... fine I will date you. So here ends April, I'm dating "Truck" and I still have Zoo-Zoo. "The Sailor" has called my several times but I ignore him, by now I love this pup even if my carpets (up AND downstairs ) are completely ruined, and he can't have him back. So "The Sailor" gets smart and calls me at work... crap, called my line and everything. Starts talking about coming to take Zoo-Zoo and all that and finally I say look.... pup has destroyed my house. I have been raising him for 2 1/2 mths now. You either give my $2K or let me keep the pup. He changes his tune and says he knows "the girl" loves him and thinks he is better off with me. Huh... imagine that. So here ends April, Mr 2112 is no more, but still calls and emails and says he regrets being stupid (of course), I'm dating "Truck," I have a new pup, OH!!!!! I totally forgot April is when my "old man" boxer had his first and major seizure. Man that was a night I tell ya. all happened in "the girls" room. She totally slept through it. thankfully. I take him to the ER Vet and they can't tell me anything. I was in such a rush puttin "the girl" and "old man" in the car I totally forgot to put on shoes... lol didn't realize it till I got there and carried "old man" in. cold floor, lol. so thats the wrap up for April. Here comes May and I'm about to go on a trip.

Testing... 1, 2, 3.....

Karma and her friends

So for the last few days I have been struggling with a few concerns. I have a lot  of questions and I need answers but I will not be able to get those answers until late tonight and maybe not even till tomorrow. The anxiety that comes with those questions and not getting answers when I want them was really getting to me yesterday. I tried to not think about it, but the questions kept coming. I know after a few days it will eventually forget the stupid questions so when I move to ask them... I have no idea what I wanted to say. So I started writing and found that I had one main question I needed answered. Now I'm just waiting to ask. So anyway, last night as I was trying desperately to suppress the twisting and churning in my stomach and chest I stared at the bright beautiful moon and begged for help, asking the various Goddess's for their aid and a piece of their strength, wisdom, and help guiding me in my actions. So I walked the puppy and headed up to bed thinking I wasn't going to get any sleep. I kept prayers in my head pleading for help and drifted off with the puppy curled up under the covers with me. And the comfort that only a pet offers to its person really helped with the calm. My cats are normally the ones to comfort me, however they hate the puppy and wont come near me when he is around ( I can't blame them he was to play with them like he does big dumb dog and it's not fun kitty play, lol). So then I got woken up to the puppy heaving so I pushed him off the bed so he wouldn't puke in it and got up to clean up the mess, it wasn't too bad thankfully, we then curled back up and I drifted back off to sleep. So this morning puppy and I wake up and my head once again is full of all those damn questions and the anger and hurt is just bubbling over and I feel like today is going to be a mad day (I really dont like mad days, only evil days) So I am coming down the stairs and puppy is in front of me and these thoughts and what happens...... I fall, yup I have 2 little flts of stairs and as I come around the landing for the 2nd set, on the 2nd stair... I slipped... and fell down the stairs, on my back... made it half way down before I stopped. Now this is not 5 or 6 steps its like 9 or 10. So the wind gets knocked out of me and I slide for a stair or 5. I didn't hurt my back too bad but I have a nice line bruise on my rt. check.... I guess I should get over it and calm down. so I am, (sorta, I'm just gonna not let it overwhelm me and stay calm) I had some oj and caught up on my blog. It's sunday and my mom and dad are leaving to go back home sometime today and I need to have a nice calm day.

Thank you Karma, I guess I needed a swift kick in the ass.....

The last mth... or so.

WOW, has the last month been.... I don't even know, overwhelming, irritating, frustrating, too much anxiety...… very negative I should say. When I got back from my short trip in Feb, my new house that I was in the process of buying was getting closer and closer to being finished. Each week I would visit and see one more thing done. So when it came time to sign the papers, while I was excited... I wasn't nearly as nervous or excited as I thought I would be. I smiled and tried to be excited for everyone that was excited for me... but it, yea not so much. It was just like "ughhh FINALLY, can we just get this done?" Maybe it will kick in in a few more weeks. Work, was well, work. Nothing really exciting. Although we got a new hire and training him has been... interesting. The guy I replaced is finally gone and all the help that came in for their short time is also now gone. So, it is all mine once again. I see myself having to carry this 29 yrs. of experience (new hire) and doing a majority of the work myself. I went back in to take care of a spreadsheet that, when you have sooo much to do can be overwhelming. So I came in off of my leave and took care of it. Of course I got roped into other work and was there probably about an hour longer than I needed to be, oh well. It got done. So I am all moved into my beautiful new house. Still unpacking boxes, but I have only been here for about 2 weeks. My mom and dad came out this week to help me, so i have a hallway and 1/2 bath that are all painted beautifully by my dad and the Girl's bed is almost completely stripped thanks to my mom (it has big pieces, mom actually did A LOT of work) and lets see, the Girl's room is done (except for the bed), ceiling fans are hung in 3 rooms, last night we got the first hanging storage rack up, and.... that's about it i guess. I got a lot of boxes unpacked and I am almost finally caught up on the laundry (I so do not want to see my first bill). The first and second day I was in the house 3 of my 8 surrounding neighbors came over to "welcome" me. It was nice. I almost felt like I was in an old neighborhood I grew up in. Over the next few days I met 2 more (one has a girl the same age as mine! yay! and they have a pool, lol double yay!) So that leaves 3 neighbors, well now 2 cause yesterday I met some of the family that lives rt. next to me. So that is pretty dang awesome. I found out the dad rt. across the street actually works at the same unit I do, that, it pretty dang awesome too. All in all, it was a pretty good week. A lot of frustration to get through it and I think I could totally use another week off, but the dang driving back and forth to take the girl to school and pick her up.... SUUUUUUUCCCKKKSSSSS, lol. I did it to myself but dang... I didn't get to sleep in until Friday. Oh well next week my goal is to have all of the boxes out of the house from upstairs. It is also to run 10 miles by the end of the week. I ran my first 5k back in Feb I did okay for a first timer I think. My time was 32:37. I ran my second 5K last sunday for St Patties day and ran it in 31:34. I have another one scheduled at the beginning of April. Hopefully I will trim another minute off by then. Maybe 2. I was only running twice a week for the last mth or so and it was only 6-8 miles a week. I plotted a nice couple of tracks around my new neighborhood.

So that has been that, for the most part. I finally have internet here so I can actually try to keep this blog this up.

January Wrap up...sorta

I know I'm a few days past the end of January but I have been kinda busy. So to bring up up to speed on Mr 2112, we started talking every day for the most part, running across each other when we got home from work, I swear he was stalking me. We would talk daily in hi, hello, and all that, He came over for a couple pizza and beer Fridays and we have hung out ever since. not really daily but we do talk. the last Friday we hung out we had the discussion about dating and and that we liked each other. Well, we decided that dating was not really an option hes a temp (is tdy, and only here for 6 mths) and if you remember my scale, it defiantly deducts from his score. I have found out that he is 40 yrs old and has been in the military for approx 17 yrs. I have to say for a 40yr old he looks really young, and can keep up with the girl. They get along great and poor thing, he gets all beat up by her whenever we hang out. So I have made a great new friend and he is defiantly someone that I can talk to with whatever issue I have, a few nights ago i had an awful day at work, so i sent him an email asking if he was going runnin, he said yes we got home went to Bayshore and ran. He just ran with me. I ran till hurt. then turned around and ran back.

Work has gotten better, i have learned alot about my new job and some of the people that i will be working with. It will defiantly be a very interesting tour. I am sure i have left out some things to catch you up on, and as i remember i will post them.

+1

So its Monday, and its back to work for me, oh yea. Hopefully this week I will learn the job I am now tasked to do and get a handle on it so I can do it without the help of the guy I'm replacing. It's also Zumba night, which I am actually really looking forward to. I have decided to take the class both days it is offered as long as I get home in time. Did I mention that I signed up to do the Susan G. Komen 3-Day? Walk 60 miles in 3 days, 18-34 miles a day, camping 2 nights in-between. Have mention how excited I am? It's not until Oct but I really wanna start training now and making sure that I will be fit for the walk and of course I work out and get into good shape. I plan on doing a few 5ks between now and october. SO I started last night by walking for 3 miles, tonight will be Zumba and Tues. will be a 2-3 mile run, gotta keep up on my PT test, lol. So to be in this race/walk I have to raise a MINIMUM of $2,300.00. I posted it on my FB, so hopefully my friends will help sponsor me. Last year I put up I was doing the 24hr relay and got absolutely NO support, 2 people that said they would be on my team ended up dropping out on me. Well, 2 of my oldest, closest friends donated large amounts to get me started. $250 each. WOW, was I surprised and so very thankful. So now I only have $1980 left to raise to make sure I secure my spot. If I dont raise the money I have 2 options, 1-pay the remaining amt up front, or 2) get an extension for 30 days with my cc number to try and raise the remaining amt. If the amt I need isn't raised I will be charged....So fingers crossed that people find it in their hearts to support this wonderful cause and me. Fingers crossed!!!!!!

So I get home today and as I am walking back out to walk stupid dog, guess who got home, lol. Yup Mr 2112.... and he is in his blues.... bbaahahahahahahahahahaha (its funny cause i don't have to wear them anymore well at least for the next 4 yrs.) so what do i do? lol, what else is there to do but laugh and point, 

me: "baaahahahahahah, you have to wear blues", 

2112: "you don't?", 

me: "phhbbb, hell no I'm special",

2112:  "aw man, lucky" , 

me: "yup, cause you never know when i might have to go jump out of an airplane, lol". 

Found out another thing, Mr 2110 isn't as young as I though he was, he's a MSgt (+). 

So here enters my rating scale, for me everyone starts out at a 5,  

factors that add:

   your older than me 

   taller

   NOT married

   works out (doest have to be a gym rat, but muscly/fit is nice)

  

Factors that take away:

  more than 1 year younger

  Married

  TDY

  

So rt. now Mr 2112 is a 6 (would be 7, but he is TDY), but thats only cause i don't know too much more than what i have told you, but he got his first +1 today, lol

What's your name?

So its Sunday and its a Bye Week for the Bears, so no football for us today. So I'm getting ready to go to the grocery store and then taking the girl to a play date. So i take the stupid dog outside and while he is doing his business, Mr 2112 comes home. (btw i saw him friday night as he was leaving to go out, lol he was wearing a black straw cowboy hat all rolled up like............. too cute) So he gets out of his car and is taking his sweet time. I'm watching him from the corner of my eye, this is too funny. So of course stupid dog being himself decides he needs to go say hello to Mr 2112 (friendly dog is making friends for me, lol) SO heres what transpires 

dumb dog runs up and wants to be petted so Mr 2112 pets him and says hello to him and then...

2112: What's your dogs name?

Me: stupid dog

2112: cool, what's your name

me: (hahah really? wow, nice move): Betty 

2112: hi I'm "2112"

me: nice to meet you neighbor

2112: oh really we're neighbors?

me: (yea rt. like you didn't know, lol) yup we share a wall, lol

2112: oh ok, cool

hahahahahah, wow so  he standing really close me, I have a small personal bubble and man he is all the way in it, i dont think he has any awareness of personnel space, lol

now the conversation goes on for a while about random things it's not a long conversation, just, where ya from, are you perm party or tdy, what's your duty station, blah blah blah

so what i found out; he's tdy here for 6 mths, and is stationed at Scott AFB Ill.. and he smiles ALOT and its like a full mouth smile, like he is showing off his braces, which by the way i thinks is absolutely adorable, i can see he's got grey coming in, in his "i haven't shaved in 2 days" stubble, lol. so maybe he is older than i thought.....

Well, Hello there....

So these Corp Aparts, I'm staying in..... They aren't too bad, but they are totally not worth the money they charge to stay here. After a few weeks I discovered that approx. 95% of the tenants here are Military and of that 95% approx. 80% of them are only here for a 6 or 8 mth TDY. Lucky bastards, lol. So enter Mr 2112. (I am in 2108.) Cute lil guy looks to be approx. 26 or 27, mouth full of braces. I met him the other day, I was walking stupid dog and noticed that he had left his keys in the deadbolt. So I knocked on the door, he was making dinner and answered the door with a spatula, lol. Still half in uniform, (reminds me of me, lol) and I pointed to his keys, so THEN stupid dog decided that he must sniff INSIDE of HIS apartment. So what does Mr 2112 do? lol, he stands here with this big smile and just looks at me as I try to get my stupid dog out of his apartment. No attempt to move and guide my dog OUT of his apartment, lol he just stand there, lol.... Thanks mister,lol. slightly embarrassed. 

Nice smile by the way....

No rooms available and my first new friend

So we get to our new base and are in lodging and our first night there we are so tired that we take showers and pass out. I have an appointment with my realtor early next morning. So we get up go to our appointment and get things all tidied up with what I am looking for and all things entailed when looking for/buying a new house. So that gets taken care of and we get back to our room and thats when I start to notice.... this billeting room... is... DISGUSTING!!!!! OMG!!!! There are USED feminine products in the trash can and half the light bulbs are blown out. So I call the front desk and make a complaint, I am told I cant be moved until the next day, thats fine, oh yea they only have me on the books for the standard 10 days and tell me there is no more empty rooms/days. So we move and do our house hunting and narrow down the choices... Well Lodging tells me to check back every day to see if a room opens up, all the while I have to find somewhere to live till I pick a house and then close on it. So I check back every day and I am told that there is still no room. While we are coming up on Christmas and it's starting to look like we will end up being homeless. I finally find a Corp Apart Company that can get me into an apart but I need an extra 2 days in lodging. So I keep my fingers crossed. I keep asking. No openings. Cant change date to move in. 2 days till my time is up, still no rooms are open. I go back by the Corp place and they agree to let me move in early. WHEW!!! So now I'm just gonna be homeless for a few hours. I pack up the car with all the animals and the girl and we have to ck. out by 11 and cant go to the apart till 4. 6 hrs of a packed car and limited options of where we can go. We drive around for a few hours running errands, get lunch and then take poor dumb dog to a dog park so he can run around. We get to the park and a lady and her kids and animals are just leaving so we have the place all to our self. It's a nice sunny day so no problem sitting outside for a while. Well, the lady that left earlier comes back but the park is sectioned off and she takes a different section. Well, dumb dog decides he needs to say hello and the other dog isn't happy about it. So girl and I make our way over to possibly leave when I start talking to mom and our girls start playing and get along great... we exchange numbers and look forward to future play dates.

Leave it behind, or carry forward?

So when I got my orders I decided to drive from the West coast to my new base on the East coast. 2,800 miles away... just me, the girl, our dog and our 2 cats. What the hell was I thinking?! Lol, well it turned out to be not so bad, the girl did great had her dsi and movies and well of course there's the sleeping, lol. I broke up the 7 day trip by staying with some friends that were generous enough to put us up along the way. I have some pretty funny stories from that trip and a few funny pics. I had a lot of time to think about some things. I had a couple friends that really burned me, truly broke my heart, and one of them I let so repeatedly and well I'm not really sure why. So in this new year I guess I will be really truly looking at if I need to let either one of these people stay in my life. I know I shouldn't take long to think about it. but after the drive and another week or so I was pretty set on once I got my internet there would be some people that I would delete from my facebook and cell phone and move on. Now I wonder what is holding me back. Why haven't I deleted them? I know now that I am gone I will most likely NOT ever hear from either one of them again. I mean I have friends that it has been a while since I have talked to them, they could call me right now and we would talk for hours, hang up the pone sign off the internet and maybe go another few mths before I heard from them. But none of them have ever broken my heart. So I guess in that is my answer huh, so why haven't I deleted them completely from my life?

Introducing.....me

 So, a little bit about me; while I will share a lot of personnel stories that may reveal a lot about me I will only tell you the basics of my background, mainly because like a friend of mine said, "if you start a blog, your gonna need to change names of people to protect the innocent/guilty" lol. I think I have to agree, so with that here I am,  I am a 30 yr. old single mom in the military. I love my job...  Ok no wait...  I actually hate the job I am currently in, no that is a lie too, I USSSED to hate my new career field I'll get into that later, but I love being in the military. Growing up I never really knew what I wanted to do, what job would I be happy doing, what am I passionate about? Then the ROTC came to my high school and during the first semester I was in the ROTC, I knew... this is where I belong. While the path didn't follow what I had planned in HS, I'm glad I came in when I did, I dropped out of College and ran away to the military. The FIRST (yes FIRST) job I had, I was a mechanic on cargo planes. Now to show you a little bit more of my mentality, not many females can make it in what I like to call the top 3 mech. careers. Crew Chiefs, Engines, and hydro. For cargo planes, those 3 career fields are like the jocks in high school. Loud, obnoxious, foul, and just a bunch of ass holes, lol. Well, I was in that crowd and I cant really brag and say I was an amazing mechanic or anything, but I could hold my own and wasn't afraid of getting dirty, working hard, carrying a heavy tool box. I was learned by the crusty old guy that smoked a few packs of marlboro reds a day and drank too much when he got home. Foul language, perverted minds and makin airplanes fly... it was amazing! I loved every single second of it, even when I was getting my ass handed to me, either by the airplane or the pro supers. Everyone else was a "non-er"; lame, stupid, boring and should be ashamed of themselves for not being a mechanic. Then, it was all brought to an untimely end. i was medically disqualified from my job and sentenced to a life behind a desk.  I was to become "one of those, those... non-ers" ugghh how disgusting! At this point I was 7.5 yrs. into my military career. While being a mechanic will wear you down and beat you up, I couldn't bear the thought of doing anything but. Well, I did my research and found a few jobs that I thought I might like and applied. Well, here I am, I sit behind a desk, and have been for almost 5 yrs. now. I worked in a Logistics Squadron for about 2 yrs., deployed came back and was moved out to a separate location in the SQ and then finally traded to a Rescue Group. Life finally started getting better when I left the Logistics SQ. The deployment wasn't easy but I made it through, my daughter lived with my parents for a year due to school, (where I lived wouldn't let her transfer because her bday was 1 day after the cut off, even though she was in school already). Then I met a man that was absolutely amazing. We became very close very quick, he inspired me in every way. I was pouring myself into work but he made me step back and find other things to move me. I rode my motorcycle more, volunteered more, kept up my work out from when I was deployed. I felt I had met my kindred spirit, we got a lot of flack of course, cause "guys and girls cant be just friends, something has to be going on," whatever, get over yourself people. He was (is) married and we still keep in touch whenever. Anyway, I got a break and my best friend called me to see if I wanted to move to her position in Rescue, uhhh " HELL YEA!" so I spent a year and a half there. I work hard. I have little to no social life, lol. Then I moved from one base house to another and met some of the most amazing people I could ever meet. The entire street, it was like going back in time to when I was a kid or when my parents were kids. All the kids played together, mom's and wives were friends and talked out in the street, worked out together, swapped recipes, you name it. And the husbands and dad's all talked, granted it was only really one side of the street but it mine as well have only been our 6 families and then the 6-7 other families that didn't live that that we considered part of our family. Now this is probably the only REAL name I will use, but we call ourselves "The Landis Family". lol It's the name of our street and well I love every single one of them. During the few mths I was blessed enough to live on Landis, I got to know the feeling of real friends. Up until this point I only had 1 or 2 real friends, and 1 decided she would leave me behind (even though she did give me her job, but I gave it to her first, lol) The friends I made there on Landis more than made up for the people that called them selves my friends but yet broke my heart and saw it fit to continuously hurt me for no reason. I am the type of person I will bend over backwards and give you the world if you need it. There at moments notice and will rarely ask for anything in return. My realtor says I am too trusting, I look at it as everyone deserves a chance. It takes a lot to earn my trust, so I will give you the benefit of a doubt until you show me that it's not worth it. I am a closet bleeding heart, I want to help everyone with everything. So yea, you can see I leave myself open to it, but I still leave my heart open to love anyone that crosses my path.  

So as you can see i am very random, but now you know alittle bit about me. I may post a few things that happened in the past because i am still letting go. So i hope you enjoy, please feel free to comment or make a suggestion. I like hearing opinions and thoughts from a different point of view. So here is to a new year, new base, new job and an ever improving me.