End of July, the drive back and the end of a relationship... finally!
So I'm coming home and all I want is my house, w/my bed and all my animals. I have been living in a hotel for the last 7 weeks and all I want is to be surrounded by MY stuff. I have never wanted to be home so bad in my 12 yrs. of service. So I call Truck to let him know I will be home soon and that I will stop by and pick up Zoo-Zoo. Earlier discussion was that he (Truck) would bring Zoo-Zoo over Sat...I said no I would pick him up on my way in, no big deal. He asked if I was gonna stay with him, I said no.…all I wanted was my stuff... its been a long 6 weeks. THen he calls back and says that oh yea he totally forgot he was taking the Son to a movie and it was out by me so he would drop off Zoo-Zoo and everything but his kennel... ok, cool word. I stop and get gas right down the street (yes I am stalling) I haven't gotten the call that the drop has been made. So do not want to deal with him right now. I know I didn't mention this before, but aver all this time, it has come to light that he isn't the sanest person I could be around and actually I'm kinda scared of him, yea I know… me scared... well I was... I actually had a breakdown the night before all this scared sh!tless about the face to face.... Anyway, he finally calls that Zoo-Zoo is home and he is leaving...whew... I will deal w/him tomorrow. I have Red on speed-dial and she is standing by, lol. actually I have like 4 people standing by, lol. I love my new friends. Well, apparently he has picked up that this is ending and is really short with me on the phone... whatever, I just want to go to bed.
The next day, I finally get him when he is home to get the kennel. I cant leave the house and desperately need the kennel. Zoo-Zoo will eat the house if I leave him out and I need groceries. I want a home cooked meal and no more fast food or chow hall pls.... He tries to stop me in the drive way and is all your just gonna leave... I explain that i didn't deserve to be treated the way he treated me, yelling at me for something that i have no control over and all the other little things that came out over the last 6 weeks... no thanks... so get out of there, not much conflict and no craziness, awesome... So like 3 days later i get am email says he had more to day... basically how in the beginning we said we would deal with each others ass-hole moods. I said there is a difference between being a n ass hole and being flat out crazy and he was just crazy and needed help, which he then tells me he's getting... Good for you hope the boy is too cause y'all both need it.... bad, and i will be your friend if you need someone to talk to but i will not be your GF and i can't go down this road as your GF.... sorry
So sometime before I finished class I got an email from Mr 2112... he's back from is short "deployment" and how am I?... Still in the Academy... he's says your busy I'm sorry take care and that he really regrets that things went the way they did and wishes he could change it and blah blah blah some other stuff... lame... moving on!
Old Man passed away in July, the girl went out to get him and found him in the dog house.... Passed. Poor thing. Mom called at work and the girl was in a mess of tears... it was all I could do to not lose my mind at work... I cried the whole way home. My dear sweet, sweet boy. I emailed his dad and it was just awful over again. But at least he's no longer in pain and was in a place where he got constant care and love and was with his lil girl.
August
School will be starting soon and The girls is still at Moms, and Red's bday is coming up... SO I have planned to spend the week with Red and then up to moms to get the girl and then home... It was a nice week at Reds, very relaxing... even w/all the "alarms" lmao. and she even let me bring Zoo-Zoo. I get the girl, get home and get her all ready for school.... 3rd grade... no more childish things my love... getting to be a big girl, no more talking in class and disrespecting the teacher... harsher rules this year... fairly uneventful month.
Sept
Another uneventful month. We move in to our new building and I have the worse possible seat. We are now in "cubicle land" but not completely blocked off from each other. I can see Army trans guy across from me, he's a riot... we are on the last row and i am the first seat of the row but hidden by a small wall. so the first 2 weeks i spend "teaching" people how to walk around my area... During the first 2 full days i was there, i had like 5 people fall on top of me cause they cut the corner too short and they dont realize I'm RIGHT FREAKING THERE!!!! so i set my trash can out to if my "cubicle" was actually enclosed were the other 2 walls would meet. people trip and get all pissed and i just yell it could have been me! and i am sure they hear me threaten the next person that falls on me.... I'm gonna pound them. No prospectives and I'm not looking.
I decided that 8 yrs was enough fighting and gave in... i had laser lypo on my tummy and got all the fat sucked out... i can see my toes again!!!! i worked out the cost and "borrowed" from myself. no the healing begins and man does it feel weird. wasn't a bad deal. only in the office for 1.5 hrs and i was "birthday shopping" 30 min later. will see in 2 weeks how i feel about it...
I did Savage Rave and oh boy am I hooked!!!! I was released a few weeks ago to start doing PT again, so i haven't trained at all for this race. its 3.5 miles of mud, fire, water and obstacles... there is even a 150 meter swim... totally kicked my ass. but man was it awesome!!!!! cant wait for the next one....tummy looks great! swelling is down and bruising was quick still have to wear this ridicules garment, but aside from it riding up my ass all day i actually really like wearing it.
October
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY GIRL!!! 8 yrs old! We have a bday party planned but no one but 2 have RSVP'd, hmmm seems this may turn out a lot like her 6th bday, but lets hope not.. Well it was actually a good turn out I really didn't expect that many to show... Good for her, glad it was awesome... The girl is doing gymnastics and was moved up to "stage 2". Yay! Just wonder how longer she will stick with it and if it will turn more serious? She's not bad.
I have the Iron Crusader coming up, is supposed to be awesome... nope. IT STANK! horrible whatever, it was a race and they all help me train for the big ones, lol
Next weekend I have the Susan G. Komen 3 day, 60 mile walk.... I have not spent a single day just walking, lol. I'm gonna hurt so bad... but running helps right? I have been working really hard the last few weeks. Jonesy decided he was gonna be me work out partner a few weeks ago and kicks my ass on a daily basis.... so that will help right? lol
So I made it 45 miles (2 days) it was absolutely AMAZING! I met some wonderful people (Ladies). My right arch fell and my fav running shoes are done... absolutely gone. Lol. my legs are killing me and man I hurts to walk. I didn't walk the last day. Since i am leaving on tech 1st want to spend the next few days with the girl.... but next year, all 3 days, all 60 miles...
I am scheduled to go TDY on tech 31st... well this is my most favorite holiday and a religious day for me as well. So I make my travel for 1 Nov.... Mom flew in on the 23rd, trick-or-treating comes along and mom says go with the girl ill pass out candy... ok, i will see if i can keep up, my dogs are killing me. so i make one lap, we stop by a neighbors house to swap parents and i decide i cant walk anymore... feet are angry and just not having it. i go home to change shoes and decide to grab a beer, cause that will help right? lol... long story short, mom shoves candy at me make some ridicules remark about not being invited to neighbors... (who's going to the neighbors?) goes to neighbors she's made friends with. night ends w/me screaming at her... cant wait to get on a plane.
Wow, I'm all caught up, sorta... I'll give you to nov to this point tomorrow its 1 am and i have no idea how much i have actually had to drink tonight, lmao HAHAHAHA
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